Sob Fest

I got the kids out of the bath on Friday and usually when I'm working with Ke'ala and Leva I give them something to do while I'm working with one and then switch and help the other child.  I decided to call Ela (my younger sis)  in Hawaii since I hadn't called her in a while and let them talk to her while i was lotioning and all that good stuff. 

Leva got on the phone and I asked him if he wanted Ela to come over.  I didn't think he knew the difference or wasn't old enough to fully understand that we no longer live with my family, or that they weren't around.   By the look on his face, I could tell he was thinking about it and all of a sudden he had THE SADDEST look on his face.  He started to pout as Ela was comforting him on the phone.  She tried to cheer him up and asked if he wanted to speak to my dad.  As soon as he heard my dad's voice, it was over.  I couldn't get him to calm down, huge gator tears everywhere. Everytime I tried to take the phone away he kept telling me, "Wa-wai talk on the phone!" (cause that's how ke'ala says his name so he says it that way sometimes) or 'I wana talk to Ela!- (or Grampa) He just would not give it up.  Then of course, I started to lose it..uh-oh.. here i go again,....(biting my lip..lets try to get thru this).. lol.. I just couldn't hold myself together.  We basically cried on the phone until it went dead, I could only imagine what my poor mother-in-law was thinking, Leva was bawling like something terrible had happened.. I finally pulled myself together, got leva to stop crying and went to bed.

The next day at church we saw a boy that was about the same height as my 6 yr old nephew (Mai) that Leva grew up with.  His back was faced torwards us and when Leva saw him he started screaming, 'Mai- mai! Mai -mai!' He ran up to see his face, all the while saying Mai and when he saw that it wasn't him, Leva had a look on his face like someone had just tricked him, he totally didn't understand.  Jesse and I couldnt stop laughing, but I had such mixed emotions, I didnt know whether to laugh or cry so I kept laughing to stop myself from crying..lol.  During sacrament Leva kept asking where Grama and Grampa were and Ela and Marwin and uncle Sale.. I explained that they were in Hawaii and were probably still sleeping.  I knew it'd be hard to be away from my family, especially since this is the first time in my 25 yrs of life that I'd be totally out of reach from them.  Usually I'm always at least a state next door or just a short drive away from anyone of them, heck, even just a door away..heheee. What I didn't think of was the way it would affect my kids and how their reactions are affecting me now.  I love that they are so close with my family members and I know that if they're not already, they'll have that same relationship with Jesse's side of the family and that makes me happy.  It's a comfort to know that anywhere they go, whether it's with my fam or Jesse's that the kids will be and will feel loved and comforted.